I am a chronic screw up, its something I've dealt with my entire life. A mix of my stubborn attitude, my ignorance, and my past traumas mix together to create situations where I am always questioning what is the right thing to do.
That said, I think I do have some good qualities. I am very transparent, and always willing to step back and reconsider my stance on things (it just takes time for those to get through my thick skull).
In hopes that I learn and grow as a brand new filmmaker (and a human), I'd like to journal things that I realize as I struggle, so not only do I keep transparency and an attitude of constant learning, flaws and all.
Maybe it will help others, maybe not. But it helps me to be honest, and keeps me aware that in film making we are all humans trying to share our dreams with the world, and it can be a very painful process. Especially when that dream is tarnished or not received well.
So, without beating a horse to death, I will post this lesson I learned this morning.
Lesson Learned #1: Don't Post Un-Graded Film Stills
It's the first film where I am working with a pro DP. I am brand new to this game, and when I see the way a pro DP handles the camera, I cry a little inside with pure joy. To me, its beautiful work. Better than I could ever hope to achieve. I think, "oh hell yes! People will love this! I love this! This is incredible work!".
I get a little excited, (as any new Director would), and start prepping my social media posts. I just have to share this beautiful work that is being done!
Only, I don't stop to think that it isn't a finished image... I'm putting the cart before the horse.
This was pointed out to me on the r/Cinematography Reddit forum. The fella there said: "Showing ungraded stills is like showing a meal in the prepping stages..."
Of course, with my attitude, I was pissed... At first. I was all like "here we go with the freaking haterade! Forget Reddit man." And proceeded to delete my post out of fear I did the wrong thing once again.
Only after I calmed down a bit, and took a breath. He was right. I shouldn't have posted ungraded stills. I can't remove all the posts I've made, but I sent an email apologizing to the DP, and made a promise to myself to not release anything until it was ready.
Sometimes, the hardest thing for me is to control my excitement about a project. I loose myself in the process, in the film, so much that I stop thinking about the audience, and I am only dreaming my own dream.
In the future, I really need to consider the audience, and only put out the best of the best foot forward for the sake of the team backing the project. It would be like posting a picture of your lady without her makeup on, just after she woke up with eye boogers. Bad idea man, bad idea.
I still deleted my Reddit account, but that is another realization for another post.
That said, I think I do have some good qualities. I am very transparent, and always willing to step back and reconsider my stance on things (it just takes time for those to get through my thick skull).
In hopes that I learn and grow as a brand new filmmaker (and a human), I'd like to journal things that I realize as I struggle, so not only do I keep transparency and an attitude of constant learning, flaws and all.
Maybe it will help others, maybe not. But it helps me to be honest, and keeps me aware that in film making we are all humans trying to share our dreams with the world, and it can be a very painful process. Especially when that dream is tarnished or not received well.
So, without beating a horse to death, I will post this lesson I learned this morning.
Lesson Learned #1: Don't Post Un-Graded Film Stills
It's the first film where I am working with a pro DP. I am brand new to this game, and when I see the way a pro DP handles the camera, I cry a little inside with pure joy. To me, its beautiful work. Better than I could ever hope to achieve. I think, "oh hell yes! People will love this! I love this! This is incredible work!".
I get a little excited, (as any new Director would), and start prepping my social media posts. I just have to share this beautiful work that is being done!
Only, I don't stop to think that it isn't a finished image... I'm putting the cart before the horse.
This was pointed out to me on the r/Cinematography Reddit forum. The fella there said: "Showing ungraded stills is like showing a meal in the prepping stages..."
Of course, with my attitude, I was pissed... At first. I was all like "here we go with the freaking haterade! Forget Reddit man." And proceeded to delete my post out of fear I did the wrong thing once again.
Only after I calmed down a bit, and took a breath. He was right. I shouldn't have posted ungraded stills. I can't remove all the posts I've made, but I sent an email apologizing to the DP, and made a promise to myself to not release anything until it was ready.
Sometimes, the hardest thing for me is to control my excitement about a project. I loose myself in the process, in the film, so much that I stop thinking about the audience, and I am only dreaming my own dream.
In the future, I really need to consider the audience, and only put out the best of the best foot forward for the sake of the team backing the project. It would be like posting a picture of your lady without her makeup on, just after she woke up with eye boogers. Bad idea man, bad idea.
I still deleted my Reddit account, but that is another realization for another post.
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