I want this post to be a warning to all following the path mentioned here.
January 5th 2020 there was a 15 year old boy. A very immature and proud one in fact, often he would go abroad online. Seeking attention, confirmation. He tried to make himself seem smart, said things as if they made him revered in some way. At January 5th he reached the height of his pride. On this server the immature, foolish boy made up and posted an awfully long speech with little substance, trust, manners or regard. He thought he sounded smart, successful, but really this fool writing out lies only made himself look horrible. He was delusional of course, untrustworthy. Using sly methods and ways to gain attention. That day it changed, he was hit with the cold truth that he wasn’t all he thought himself to be. In fact, he was nothing. In return for his post he was banned from this server. That fool took a while to understand his actions. To reflect and change into a new person.
That creature was some version of myself at the start of this year, although I have tried to forget, dis-identify myself from that fool and move on I can’t help but think. Will this mistake of my younger self come back in the future to destroy me? Has this destroyed my reputation? Then I realised that it was too late, my reputation on this server is destroyed. No doubt all have moved on or forgotten, or used me as an example of foolishness, as they should. I realised that the reputation part doesn’t matter. It’s the ability to change.
So if anyone on this server is withholding anything, trying to make themselves seem like something or someone they are not. Change now, before it is too late.
‘I doubt I will remain long in this server, surely I will be banned again. But please do not remove this message, allow it to remain and be an example to all those of sly, deceitful nature. That they must change now, or forever have regret.
sincerely
A now humble filmmaker
January 5th 2020 there was a 15 year old boy. A very immature and proud one in fact, often he would go abroad online. Seeking attention, confirmation. He tried to make himself seem smart, said things as if they made him revered in some way. At January 5th he reached the height of his pride. On this server the immature, foolish boy made up and posted an awfully long speech with little substance, trust, manners or regard. He thought he sounded smart, successful, but really this fool writing out lies only made himself look horrible. He was delusional of course, untrustworthy. Using sly methods and ways to gain attention. That day it changed, he was hit with the cold truth that he wasn’t all he thought himself to be. In fact, he was nothing. In return for his post he was banned from this server. That fool took a while to understand his actions. To reflect and change into a new person.
That creature was some version of myself at the start of this year, although I have tried to forget, dis-identify myself from that fool and move on I can’t help but think. Will this mistake of my younger self come back in the future to destroy me? Has this destroyed my reputation? Then I realised that it was too late, my reputation on this server is destroyed. No doubt all have moved on or forgotten, or used me as an example of foolishness, as they should. I realised that the reputation part doesn’t matter. It’s the ability to change.
So if anyone on this server is withholding anything, trying to make themselves seem like something or someone they are not. Change now, before it is too late.
‘I doubt I will remain long in this server, surely I will be banned again. But please do not remove this message, allow it to remain and be an example to all those of sly, deceitful nature. That they must change now, or forever have regret.
sincerely
A now humble filmmaker