Before I begin: I realize this may be off-topic to a degree, however It is the "Newbie" forum where Im "Considering film school" and "asking a question" I think that should validate this post?
Let me start...
I haven't picked up a camera in 4 years, I am 16 years old right now. I used to make videos on youtube, stupid ones, but they were fun because I did them with friends.
Im 16 years old and for about the last 10 months ive had one question in my mind. "What do I want to do?". Filmmaking is plausible for me, but theres something holding me back from doing this; the risk.
Let me tell you a little about myself first, and from a total unbiased response I want you guys to say if I should be a film maker or not.
It begins here....
Never liked sports as a kid, was enrolled in a few, never liked them. I am up for physical activity and exertion but not a sports person. Since the age of 10, Ive been active on the computer. At age 11 I created my own Server for a game I played, in which I got donations for running it. At age 12 I started web design for my server, and soon expanded it to a business at the Age of 14. At age 14 I ran a web design business for a few months earning some dough. I spent this money on a new computer and vacation for the family and often paid for restaurant meals where we dined. With the new computer I learned Sony Vegas, Flash CS4 (Already knowing Photoshop + Dreamweaver).
Recently Ive been thinking a lot more than often about my future. Science is no longer appealing to me. I can read about it, watch a documentary, and grow my knowledge as a hobby, but I don't see my self getting in to the science field where I would teach or research. I have secure funding if I wanted to go to university/college, but I'm sort of leaning away from it. I often find myself not going to certain classes in my school. Its not because its to hard or that im being bullied.
Its simply because my philosophy is "Why do something that doesn't count?". Ive understand everything Ive been taught, and never failed a course. In the easiest courses in the school, im getting 50's because I dont want to make an effort or attend class. I just want to pass the course and get the credit. Dont get me wrong, In the Unviersity Sciences, I took all 3, Im getting 70's. Its not impressive but again, I'm not trying. I'm only doing a minimum effort to grasp understanding of the subject. In the case of science I'll need 70's, but easier classes 50. I mean, why put an effort and waste time in a class that your going to pass anyways. Next year (grade 12) will it matter if I got a 90 in the easiest class? No, but Next year I'll try for a good GPA in case I want to go to university.
I dont find it necessary for a number or someone to tell you how smart you are. You should already know.
I dont find courses that are just knowledge interesting, but rather the ones that make you think (Psychology, Marketing, English, Philosophy).
// End mini bio...
Now, I'm not one of those people who from very early in their child hood declare they are going to be a film maker. I however, have been researching these past weeks about the career. Ive tried writing my frist screenplay and so far have written 3000 words, I can see the scenes and how the movie would play out (Perhaps I'll have better luck in cinematography) but I fail to write a strong character, and my plot is to complex. But at this point I feel like im forcing my self and Im feeling a sensation of doubt and regret - Perhaps its because Im trying to force myself a career?
I really dont know where im going at with this post, but really what Im asking here is your personal "story" or a description of the feeling... the emotion that you get when you knew you wanted to be a film maker.
Again, Im not here to ask about "Which camera to buy", because I already know theres much more to the business than just the camera (Lighting, Sound, Editing, Distribution, Casting, Scheduling, Business Side, Budgeting, Law, Permits, etc...). I am here to ask you about HOW and WHEN you knew you wanted to be a film maker, from point A to B.
Let me start...
I haven't picked up a camera in 4 years, I am 16 years old right now. I used to make videos on youtube, stupid ones, but they were fun because I did them with friends.
Im 16 years old and for about the last 10 months ive had one question in my mind. "What do I want to do?". Filmmaking is plausible for me, but theres something holding me back from doing this; the risk.
Let me tell you a little about myself first, and from a total unbiased response I want you guys to say if I should be a film maker or not.
It begins here....
Never liked sports as a kid, was enrolled in a few, never liked them. I am up for physical activity and exertion but not a sports person. Since the age of 10, Ive been active on the computer. At age 11 I created my own Server for a game I played, in which I got donations for running it. At age 12 I started web design for my server, and soon expanded it to a business at the Age of 14. At age 14 I ran a web design business for a few months earning some dough. I spent this money on a new computer and vacation for the family and often paid for restaurant meals where we dined. With the new computer I learned Sony Vegas, Flash CS4 (Already knowing Photoshop + Dreamweaver).
Recently Ive been thinking a lot more than often about my future. Science is no longer appealing to me. I can read about it, watch a documentary, and grow my knowledge as a hobby, but I don't see my self getting in to the science field where I would teach or research. I have secure funding if I wanted to go to university/college, but I'm sort of leaning away from it. I often find myself not going to certain classes in my school. Its not because its to hard or that im being bullied.
Its simply because my philosophy is "Why do something that doesn't count?". Ive understand everything Ive been taught, and never failed a course. In the easiest courses in the school, im getting 50's because I dont want to make an effort or attend class. I just want to pass the course and get the credit. Dont get me wrong, In the Unviersity Sciences, I took all 3, Im getting 70's. Its not impressive but again, I'm not trying. I'm only doing a minimum effort to grasp understanding of the subject. In the case of science I'll need 70's, but easier classes 50. I mean, why put an effort and waste time in a class that your going to pass anyways. Next year (grade 12) will it matter if I got a 90 in the easiest class? No, but Next year I'll try for a good GPA in case I want to go to university.
I dont find it necessary for a number or someone to tell you how smart you are. You should already know.
I dont find courses that are just knowledge interesting, but rather the ones that make you think (Psychology, Marketing, English, Philosophy).
// End mini bio...
Now, I'm not one of those people who from very early in their child hood declare they are going to be a film maker. I however, have been researching these past weeks about the career. Ive tried writing my frist screenplay and so far have written 3000 words, I can see the scenes and how the movie would play out (Perhaps I'll have better luck in cinematography) but I fail to write a strong character, and my plot is to complex. But at this point I feel like im forcing my self and Im feeling a sensation of doubt and regret - Perhaps its because Im trying to force myself a career?
I really dont know where im going at with this post, but really what Im asking here is your personal "story" or a description of the feeling... the emotion that you get when you knew you wanted to be a film maker.
Again, Im not here to ask about "Which camera to buy", because I already know theres much more to the business than just the camera (Lighting, Sound, Editing, Distribution, Casting, Scheduling, Business Side, Budgeting, Law, Permits, etc...). I am here to ask you about HOW and WHEN you knew you wanted to be a film maker, from point A to B.
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