I'm more concerned that none of the shorts had merit and that you don't know anything about lenses.
$300K a large amount of money and it can go away crazy fast. Whether you are doing shorts or playing around, don't start spending money that you don't consider play money until you know what you...
32?
Yikes. I kinda figured OP was 16 or so. A 16 year old can afford to pussyfoot around. At the age of 32, you kinda have to be doing something and not talking about it all the time.
The world is full of visionaries. People that have the willingness and ability to get a concrete job done in a concrete manner on time is what is in demand and short supply.